Walk to the Edge of the Earth

I walked to edge of the earth

I looked back and saw everything

War
Fights
Arguments
Theft
Death

All over the world
All at once

I even saw the past

Destruction that shook the world
Death that left us all empty
Horrible things that I never lived
But in that moment I did

In a small corner of the world
So small I almost missed it

I saw every painful memory of my life

Screaming at my sister about how much I hated her
Holding back tears as a kid teased me
Watching my mother cry for a brother I never knew
Seeing my once strong father close to dying in a hospital bed
Finding my dog's cold, shallow breathing body so near to death
Trying to block out the arguments of my parents shredded marriage
Crying and pounding a bathroom floor after losing my love
And the many sobbing nights after
Me finally realizing how my life was never gonna go anywhere

I couldn't look away
I cried and screamed louder and louder
Each memory cut me deeper and deeper
I relived it all
As if I never had before
And every memory was new
Fresh wounds that ripped and teared at me

I was brought to my knees
Broken
Lonely
Sobbing

I dragged myself
Slowly crawling back to the rest of world

I returned
Bruised
Scratched
Tired

And I knew why walking to the edge of the earth and back was such a big sacrifice

At the edge of earth,
You see how horrible the world really is
You see things that should never have been seen again
You feel the hurt of a million people

And you feel each and every one of their deaths

Reliving your life is the hardest
Reliving every painful moment
Breaks you in a way you never thought you would be broken
It twists your soul
Crushes your heart
Over and over
Even worse than the death of those millions of people

And yet coming back is even harder still
Knowing that you have to live in this terrible world
Knowing that you have a lifetime of pain left
You want to throw yourself off of the edge
Just to escape it

But for you,
I'd walk to the edge of the earth
And back
Again